+programming ftw/ftl

~tried to program some game script today... took out half my life and 3/4 of my brain :X

+fking lazy

~wee... i realise i am fking lazy... like a fking freeloader...

~everyone got a job here and there... shitty pay... some with dam good pay and working conditions... oh well

~its like losing sight of my peers... but ...... bo bian i guess... not that everyone is able in the first place

~sch starting in may... time for sch now ba... screw the jobs... i am lucky maybe... that i dun need a job to support myself atm... lolx ... weeeeee

+weee

~i think i scored 1 ...

~now the score is like 200 - 1 lolx

~oh well... at least i scored

-healed shit

~i tot it healed... but it came back to haunt me

-bali

~sucky trip... nothing interestingly interesting

~met a jackass there... moronic bastard

~i won't go bali again i guess, even if i was paid...

-reservist.. waseh

~sianz diaoz... here comes the pain lolx

-sianz diaoz... i realise

~i realise i might have chosen the wrong course in uni ... TT

~crap shit... i am computer engineering...

~its a mix between computer science and electrical and computer engineering...

~wah la... jack of all trades , master of none... shit

~i think i actually wanted communications and media... oh well.. crapp.... i wonder if i can still change now... haix...

+sorey eyesss

~sianz diaoz...

~went back to play a bit of dota... and got sore eyes for the matter

~haix

-lohengrin

~sianz... i got hit by a lohengrin-like blast from the solar celestial today...

~fk... its burning inferno for a moment... hope it cools down asap

-counter attacking day 1

~time to embark on this mission to end the 10 year and counting, long journey ...

~i hope i emerge winner.. cos if i lose its over

-mixed like shit

~to you, i may be anti social

~to me, i am anti existence

~nobody will prolly understand the shit phase i am in

~i dun even understand why i am in this never ending phase

~i just hope it gets over as soon as possible... its a torture... to everyone

~its prolly living each day and counting your feathers...

~i have not been myself for god knows how long... prolly even i don't know ...

~hurting others have not been my will , if i did ... pls forgive me... i am at wits ends

~time will heal the wounds... but mine will not be complete ... if only it reverses... then there may be hope

-Christ and the code

~is the da vinci code true? is christ not divine?

~oh well, critics will go on forever and ever

~if you won't believe in what i say, and i won't believe in what you say, whats the point of arguing

~anyway my bro converted the christian when he felt an immense love filling him up

~well , today i felt an immense love of the same magnitude when i did something i ought to have done a long time ago. i helped ah ma apply aloe vera on her forehead lolx ... i realise that gaming has robbed enough of my life, time to see the greater good in life

~gaming as a past time is prolly ok , obsession will get you no where though lolx...

-shit

~people say money ain't impt, but everyone still needs em, or loves em

~should i conform or be a radical ... in a mix

~perhaps i am a victim of my own judgment