-simple role

~sometimes, i feel like i don't belong

~it seems as though my part was to watch the greatest feelings ever while being banished from this vain...

~it shouldn't be like that ... something is a amiss... yet i couldn't do anything to prevent since donkey years ago... fuck up...

-zaming game

~top zam bottom, bottom zam even more bottom...

~we at bottom of the food chain, sure tio zam like siao

~fk up place...

~it needs a lot of changes... but people are lazy, changes will only be made at dead's ends...

~it really needs a revolution

-i wasted

~my life prob started on 3rd april 1988 to about 2000...

~there was no I after that

~i look outside at the night skies and life... time truly waits for no man

~why did i have to be bind by this shit...

-it ain't good

~live life without regrets...

~but its dam fuck hard

~screwed up piece of shit again... and again and again... is the immunity so fking strong that it just screws up day in day out regardless of what shit i do?

~i took a look out at the night sky, it was endearing...

~virtual might be massive, but the reality is unfathomable

~endless out there, its just a sight to behold...

~i keep thinking if it can be rewind , things would change a whole lot, and regrets won't be present in the journal.

~the outside is beautiful, but i just can't grasp it this life time, at this moment...

~hopefully the next will be better... ...

-argghhhh

~fk it... stop killing me ass hole ... the world might like you but i don't currently...

+glimpse of hope

~a small but very worthwhile hope towards freedom! whooo

~i feel sick today... prob sit in air con room too long

-laugh .. while you still can

~get on it bitch

-it sux more and more

~what fk... later and later, shittier and shittier

~why can't life be a garden of roses... ( or izzit a rosy... heck who cares)

~SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS

~saw a few dnb today... seems like its a trend nowadays...

-sailing

~after so long not sailing, it just kind of sux to start it... worse still have to fight recon... wtf

-screwed up piece of shit

~new shit, same old shit

-ord and the bigger picture

~about time ... muhahahahaha

~on a lighter note, this webby is rather interesting... found on ys blog

~http://www.storyofstuff.com/

~if everyone was educated of this stuff, then prob the world will change for the better

+mixed aplenty

~struggling so hard, but its useless... its unstable... i sux

~through my struggle, i caused much devastation... i sux

~nature is taking a way too long approach... i sux

~man made didn't improve either... i sux

~i found a nice song after watching finish d.gray man... its called musician on gendou, very nice music piece

~ps. i sux, emo? perhaps... probably... //

~scared of venturing forth into the uncharted...

~not my inability but my disability...

~listening to the music that soothes my ears,

~it keeps everything that plagues me out of my world

~for a moment, a very brief moment, i enjoyed freedom as a human, relieve as a person, rights of myself

~i know i screwed up , the moods disheartening, is there a way for me to repent?

~i don't want to walk this darkness any more, if so , when will i see the light... to the past's future?

~i am just another troubled soul in 6,602,224,17 of others in the world (excluding E.Ts)

~so troubled as a 20 year old

~been troubled since 13 (prolly 11.. i dun really remember)

~when will salvation come? i can only pray to my soul

-down the hill

~its coming back!!! aghhhh...

-its going downhill fk...

~some people are nice, some people aren't

~but if you are nice on the surface and shit in heart, you are fk up

~having said so, direct shit ass also sux

~by pushing blame on others is bullshit... esp when it comes to money matters

~that fker is full of shit.... period

+so god dam hard

~sianz... hope the twist comes

+appreciation

~not everyone is on the same level

~thats why genius are borne

+perhaps

~its seems like _ is keeping everything harmful away from me...

~maybe its really a blessing in serious disguise