+whoo hoo piano !

~wow i haven't touched the piano for ages...

~luckily still can play okay... i managed to play dang ni without the piano score! or rather i created my own dang ni! yea! love the song

-Dang ni/freedom

~i really fking love this song, written by JJ LIN and sang by cyndi wang. although i prefer jj's version.

~its prob the greatest song ever

~if you can't do what you like, if you can't have the freedom of will, how much better are you from being dead?

-return of the condor heroes 2006

~crap, start was great, mid was good, end was too rushed... why rush? dam, or else it would have been great...

~they didn't show many parts... haix... the ending was abrupt, whats the point then... the ending is the one that counts!





~pls stop making fun of me. issn't it enough yet? what a cruel shit fate i have to endure

-uncle

~holy shit i became i uncle... my cousin got a descendant and now i am a freaking uncle lololx

+ikea madness

~bought a whole lot of shits at ikea today with family

~can't wait for gundam musou 2!!!

+wuxia madness

~i became crazy of wuxia xiao shuo nowadays... first it was yi tian tu long ji, now its return of the condor heroes! whoooo all the way!!!!

~too bad jin yong did not continue his stories, esp the condor trilogy, yi tian tu long ji was not enough! should have 1 more sequel , dam... but no story to continue cos ming dynast was founded already... haix...

~maybe i go video making later... later that is

~anyway for the 2nd dam day in the role i woke up at 2.3am.. i wonder why... couldn't sleep till like 4 plus 5? omg... i gonna die soon... i need ma sleepepee ... but also realised that cherrie was not sleeping too lolx as usual... almost went online at 3plus.... almost.... :)

+gundam musou 2!!

~crap have to wait for march for the NA release...

~or should i buy the jap one... haix

~yi tian tu long ji getting more interesting... dam! i love it

+be the miracle

~a single mother bring up 2 children while working on multiple jobs and still manage to find time to bring the kids to a soccer game is a miracle

~people have the power to perform miracles or Be the miracle

-weird

~weird, its getting weird ... wtf... sux...

~anyway i managed to fix up the ps3 network today woo, proud of myself... i called the freaking singtel helpdesk and they said they only have laptop and desktop support crap...

~luckily i am smart, i set it up MYSELF MUAHHAHAHAA... ... ... lolx ok ... enough of crap

~on the 5th disc of yi tian tu long ji now ( heavenly sword and dragon sabre) the alec su, alyssa chia and gao yuan yuan version, its the best by far! love ZHAO MIN!!! yea, fanboy stuff... wadeva

~sad thing is i will prob fin the 6th disc soon then i will have nothing to do... shit...

-my mind, the troubled, the end

~i think too much... to the extent i can't sleep...

~it kind of sux, its getting worse... perhaps its time to silence it? lolx... i wonder

~i dreamt of things which i normally couldn't recall when i wake up... but its getting more vivid nowadays... i can start to recall some, but not others

~i remembered dreaming of my primary sch, where the toilet was revamped to become a swimming pool with the new toilet in there... it was dark though, kinda eerie...

~then i dreamt of talking to by chairman in sec 4, something about her camera or sorts? but i don't really recall well..

~only troubled people thinks and reflects so much in life... it gets worrying... ( ok maybe maniacs too) some people call this process EMO (emotional) but perhaps those people will never know that much about such things...

~when you start to sit down and really reflect on your life and your future, you prob will understand that regrets are normal... life is good, but it could be better, definitely

~maybe all this troubles plagued my sleep, causing my immune system to go bonkers.... sad... but theres nothing i can do... perhaps do yoga? lolx... no thx... its part of growing up...

~alas, it seems like my life is flashing by me now... but in my sleep

~perhaps i am dying... because this happens when you are at the end of your life... bless... or when you have learnt to grow out of your predicament

~i just read an article in the LIFE! section today of straits times, about RUI EN... my heart goes out to her

~everyone has their own problems, its the extent that differentiates... i think i am quite similar to her... i am sure there are others out there...

~she mentioned about changing her first 24 years of her life, quoting that many others wouldn't when asked... i think i would change my life too, every single minute, every single second... if i had the choice...

~i destroyed it to my dismay and its not rewarding when you grow up till this age of 20. i made too many a mistake and its too hard to swallow now... its overbearing... i am lucky to have a good family unlike RUi EN... i really love my family its been great, except me

~perhaps i should stop being a screwed up persona to my family and learn to grow up... because perfection is not a reality, money issn't a cure, power/fame/popularity are not forever... its time to face the truth that this society offers, or die trying...

~i thank you RUi En for your insight, because i finally (prob) realise that what i have been trying to do all my life (20) is to destroy it

~not everyone is a runner, not everyone can complete a marathon, not everyone has buck loads of money, not everyone is kind caring and concern, not everyone is able-bodied, not everyone has the good looks, not everyone has the alluring scent to smitten others, not everyone has the brains to solve the big bang, not everyone has the ability to smile in adversity, not everyone believes in god or celestial beings(not the gundam 00 one...) or extra-terrestrials for the matter of fact ... not everyone... its a matter of uniqueness... individuality, that makes us humans... not robots...

~if you try to be someone you are not meant to, you might achieve some success, but at a cost of something else much more valuable... its not worth it ,you might understand one day... although some times its worth it...( lolx i am contradicting myself... even i am confused... )

~maybe i am just a confused lamb in a wild jungle, it gets pretty annoying. maybe i shouldn't take computing, i should go down the path of psychology, i prob need it more

~i think today is reflection day, cos i am reflecting much more than usual

~anyone i was looking through all the year books and report cards of the past. i realise that i didn't have the rvhs 2001 2002 year books... crap... so i missed out on my photos and sorts.

~i looked back at the past, and realised i really need to change the past if not, the future... its disheartening... i didn't deserve it... i deserve better.

~if only i didn't commit the wrong moves, then it wouldn't lead to the unstoppable avalanche...

~my bro said i was filled with human pride and proud of myself as a human when i told him that human's don't need god's faith to pull through difficulties.. .perhaps i am really pride-ridden.. i am starting to understand that my own pride, god's faith or wadeva else, don't give you anything... its your own perseverance that pulls you through. ( wadeva your perseverance links to) maybe lady luck does help at times.

~i think i am getting sick due to typing so much feelings through and through... maybe its the medicine that's making me sick... who knows... the sick aren't worth the penny of thoughts, thats prob what the society instills... but not everyone is affected i am glad...

~its time to look to the bright side of life once again...

freeee!!!

~weee ... freeee like a bird

~switched to my sony ericsson k608i! welcome home buddy

~bad news is that no charger no connector... fk... shit... sux...

~prob have to buy new charger ... crap

~anyway i took a look out of the service balcony today and realised that time passes real fast... the view was getting old and nostalgic... and i didn't really take a good look at the neighbourhood... it was surreal... i missed out a lot... hope i am in time to make it up

~i want my charger!!!!

-its a expensive life

~i spent a wooping 150 bucks today buying all sorts of wu ae bo ye. its a sorties of junkies...

~met ah bing today too at wm... thx to him i saved 10 bucks at popular while buying rome total war... which unfortunately came in a bundle of 4

~i have 1 already, the other rates at 6.0/10 -.- and the last is not something i would play considering i have rome total war... maybe try out? who knows...

~its like i bought diablo2 battlechest years ago and it came with diablo 1.. i didn't touched it... ok maybe a little...

+woohoo

~last day prob at camp after this its clearance and ord!!!

+jia ge wo

~nice song i heard on radio and on wan quan yu le

~sang by du de wei - jia ge wo