-maybe its me

~after blaming almost everything and everyshit there ever was in everywhere... i realise that... maybe i am the cause the reason the end... zzz.z.z.z..z weird... this sucks...

~rappelz rappelz and more rappeling i guess... at least ... they drop me 3 yeti card liaoz lolx... too bad i failed two... noooo lost 20m...zzzz

+happy chinese new year

~but what about those who aren't happy? sad chinese new year?

~i realise maybe i am spoilt... yea... i am spoilt crap...

+double fun double madness

~going down the same route that blew up life topsy turvy again.... wth am i thinking lolx...

~guess its called addiction

~rappelz is fun... especially when you find people who are worthwhile in this game

~furthermore its sg based... lotsa people from your region... not like that of us servers... lag.. lag...lag... lag...and more lag... and full of shit people in there... crappy

~i wonder how long this body can last... prob going down again... since i chose it over health... bad? dunno.... hope not..

-my eyes...

~sore... tired... red ...strained... screwed... dam...

~how fortunate some peopel are ... yet how unfortunate some are

+back to gamin

~addiction! its hard to kick... sucks ...

~on a better note, its PASSION!

-hmm 100

~getting worse again how come?

-the bane of me

~unstable

-the success of failure

~i realise that admitting your failure is your first step to success

~learnt that from playing rappelzSEA and watching a million star! ( CHAO JI XIN GUANG DA DAO )

~i realise i am falling in love with yoga lin! he rocks! he is truly unique, not like kaya JAM and assy ASKA lolx!

+how much/ i dun want to close my eyez

~how much i wish to do, but i can't

~how much i want to go, but i can't

~how much i thought i could, but i can't

~how much it seems easy, but its hard

~how much i want to say, but i can't

~how much it sux, but theres nothing much i can do

~maybe i should stop finding fault with my pathetic wasted self

~anyway, a quote from the girl who died from cancer recently, shandy's blog's friend's sms (yea many 's lolx)

~"Fear is finding fault with the future. If only we could keep in mind of how uncertain our future is, then we would never try to predict what could go wrong. Fear ends there."

~you know, sometimes you have to know about the misfortunate before you can appreciate being fortunate

her experiences has certainly taught me about the greatness/sadness of what life offers

many people cry over small, minute, unimportant things, and usually forgo the bigger picture.

she has definitely taught me that the world doesn't revolve around me, but instead, i revolve around the world.

thank you for your spirited inspiration and may you have a deserving "future" :)

-2009

~new year new start

~my wish: give me back what i have lost