-humanity

~slowly... but surely... i am losing it...

~why... do_shite... naze...

+rhythm emotion

~feels like dead man walkin' ... lolx... the undertaker rocks btw

~anyway, running every alternate day seems to be taking my life out of my soul... but too bad.. the army requires that...

~it is as though my heart is splitting... perhaps i ain't condition to be good at exercising... but i was in table tennis... but then again, my coach says i am like a wooden block... that explains why i ain't movin' well and having loads of stamina i guess...

~table tennis... hmm... still my favourite... although i can no longer... play.. at will...

~it feels as though fate is cruel yet kind... like a rhythmic emotion playing on my strings of life...

~anyhow, the food at a restaurant i went to today with my family sucks... big time... and the bill = $123...

~gettin' a new computer soon... guess i am an addict...... no kickin' anytime... but am still restricted... to .. -

~had weird dreams recently... dreamt of getting married and have kids and watch the sunset from a peaceful setting away from all the wars of reality... it was surreal... kind... pleasant... and bee-ee--a-- utifulll~

-solitudes

~reflections... as more poured in... it feels like an eternity of solitude...

~the same night, replaced by the same day...

~perhaps its time to move onto the next phase of life...

~perhaps...

~but what can be made out of this unknown future?

~thats life i guess... thats life...

~age... it causes changes... it changed me... a whole mile... it changed everything around me..

~it made me realise, that life goes on... regardless...

~so whats the whole idea behind life? how did it start? what is its causes... how does it end? i wonder...

~maybe its a better idea to be born at a much later timeline... maybe in the future, it would be the space era... where humanity would not have suffering, regrets, and complains...

~perhaps the future may be the life i seek... for i am lost... now... in a world of dreams... the world that i want...

~my world...

-it seems

~it seems so yesterday....

~suddenly i felt i am no longer young.... 14 years old i was watching gundam seed... and it seems like it was yesterday... but... its been 8 years....

~what have i been doing this 22 years on the planet? i don't really know... its been staring at the same night sky... always... it seems ... ... ...

~time goes by.. life goes on.. nothing stops... i wish to evolve mankind. bring it to the next generation. probably space age...

~too much time of man has been spent on unnecessary things... too much...

~maybe i didn't want to advance mankind... i wanted to advance only to go back in time... ironic...

~i want the technology to go back in time... i missed so much... even now... still... lost... much...

~the past... my past... mine... lost... why...

~living... am i ? ... .maybe not... but i am...

~this affliction destroyed everything... even now... yet i still soldier on ... in hope that one day i am free of its clutches...

~its turning better now.. although this war has ravaged much of the lands... my future? is any left? ... perhaps a kind soul ... would seek that little remnant ... and remind me i am still living...